Finding My Voice

Diana Beebe, Mermaids Don't Do Windows, MDDW, Diana Beebe's Blog, science fiction, fantasy, Young adultI’ve been feeling lately that I’m not sure what to post about. The last few months have been filled with the aftermath of a broken dishwasher (yes, another dishwasher death match) that ruined my cabinets before I realized it was pumping water out instead of in. Everything is almost back to normal in my kitchen, the old dishwasher was kicked to the curb, and the new one is beautiful.

Also, I finished the first draft of my Young Adult Science Fiction Thriller, GLOW. I’ve been through a couple of edits, too. I’m excited about this book and creating a series for it.

I’m getting my house organized, slowly. Oh, so slowly. But I’m making progress, even though it feels like a snail’s pace.

I quit the evil day job. Well, it wasn’t really evil. I liked my job and I was good at it. I loved the flexibility my job provided me. I so enjoyed the people I worked with for nearly two decades. I try to meet a few of those friends for lunch every so often to catch up. These moments help keep me sane. They asked if it was weird feeling not going to the office anymore. Nope.

It’s time to take my skills out as a freelance technical writer, as an editor, as a full-time author. And it’s a good thing. I’ve been so busy with house repairs and writing and editing that the day job would have gotten in the way. (Notice I didn’t mention reading. I’m behind on my reading goals.)

I’ve entered different novel manuscripts and a work-in-progress in contests. I’ve received helpful feedback from judges and requests from literary agents and editors (as well as some rejections so far). I enter these contests expecting good feedback–final placements are never expected, but I’m thrilled that it’s happened at least once for each novel, including a Grand Prize. My Books page shows them all, if you’re curious.

All this progress is bittersweet without my best friend and partner to share it with me. I have so many friends who I can share these accomplishments with, and I’m getting used to the difference.

The peace I felt at his passing has stayed with me, and a new normal is settling in. I miss him. After spending more than half my life with him, I suppose that’s to be expected. Armadillo no longer cringes when I talk about her dad. She brings up fun memories she has of him. I’m so grateful.

I said all that just because I’m not really sure what to post about anymore. I’m realizing that I don’t know what my new normal voice is. Before, it was an overworked, happily-married gardening mom who found the absurd in the news.

Everyday I manage to find more happiness, more normalness, more me. I hope you all stick around with lots of patience to find out what I’ll sound like.

18 comments on… “Finding My Voice”

  1. Leanne

    Diana, it sounds like wonderful unfoldment. You are listening for your next phase voice (is it a mermaid voice?!) And we are listening with you! Thank you for letting us swim along on your journey!

    • Diana Beebe

      Hi, Leanne! It might just be a mermaid voice. I love that idea. Thank you for swimming along!

  2. kristie zubko

    I think about you and the kids everyday. I send y’all a little prayer and thoughts of joy and hope before I go to sleep every night. I’m glad Armadillo is talking about her dad, makes me so happy.

    You will find your new voice, your new voice will have a different sound, not better but different. You have so many wonderful adventures ahaead of you. 🙂

    • Rachel Cahill


      I agree. Divine Ms Diana, we love you so much and we will definitely stick around with you on your journey. Each day will bring more understanding of the beautiful unfoldment of Love.

      • Diana Beebe

        Love you, too, Rachel. I’m beyond grateful to have so much love around me!

  3. Joni Hahn

    I think about you, too, and always enjoy your posts. They say its all about the journey, not the goal. Maybe you need to just immerse yourself in this transition time with your daughter and the voice will emerge on its own (No, I haven’t been hanging out with Mr. Miyagi LOL). The best writing comes from the heart and today’s post was very touching. Maybe you’re already there.

    • Diana Beebe

      Thank you for your sweet comment, Joni. It has been quite the journey. I think I’m getting there. 🙂

  4. You will find your new normal voice when you’re ready, Diana. Kudos on all the writing you’ve been doing. I’ll be reading those posts whenever they arrive. Good thoughts winging your way. E

  5. Take all the time you need, my friend. You will get there eventually. We’re all here for the long haul. And huge congratulations on all the awesomeness in your writer life!!!

  6. I love seeing you evolve in this new chapter (notice the writing reference!). I’m always a phone call away if you need to talk. You rock, li’l sister!

  7. I admire how you’re handling everything you’ve been through, Diana. I’m happy that you’re able to pursue your dreams full-time and making great strides. I love sic-fi. Looking forward to reading Glow when it’s published.
    It’s wonderful that Armadillo is finding peace, too. That must be a huge comfort to you.
    Your voice is your voice. It comes through. Just being yourself is all you need. XO

    • Diana Beebe

      Lynn, thank you! Your words are so encouraging and make me realize that I don’t have far to go. My voice is already my voice! Hugs, my friend!

  8. melanie

    I simply can’t wait for Glow.
    I adore you and think of you so often! Sorry we missed you over spring break. Next time, i hope and pray.

    • Diana Beebe

      I can’t wait for you to read it, Melanie! Traveling to see family often leaves extra time for other visits. We’ll make it work someday. Love you!!

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