Halfway Point aka the Point of No Return

I’ve reached an interesting milestone in my life.

The Halfway Point

Some people call it the point of no return, because we’ve gone so far that going back would take longer than just finishing the journey.

No, I don’t mean that I’m middle aged (even though technically I am), because I’m only as old as I feel, not as old as my driver’s license says. And I don’t feel old (well, except when I listen to the radio–not kidding–and when my friends’ kids are in high school or older–yes, I do have a kid in high school, but that’s beside the point). I don’t feel all grown up even when I pay bills.

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Which I love, by the way, because people never believe me when I say how long I’ve been married. “Did you get married when you were 12?” is a common response.

This week, we celebrate our 21st anniversary.

Can you do the math? I’ll wait while you calculate…

*hums “The Wedding March”*

I’ve been married for as long as I wasn’t married before that.

For half my life, I’ve been married.

Finished with that math yet?

Yep, I got married when I was 12.Β  JUST KIDDING.

If you can’t do the math, I can’t help you. I’m a writer, not a mathematician.Β  πŸ˜€

My life as a Beebe is now longer than my life before that. (I feel as if I’m channeling Mojo Jojo from the Power Puff Girls with all the redundancy flying around here.) People who haven’t done the math can keep wondering how old I was when I got married. *evil Mojo laugh*

Looking back, I was a baby, just graduated from college and clueless about a lot of things. There was one thing that my 21-year-old self knew that my 30ish-year-old self forgot and ran away from: I loved to write. She embraced my twisted dark side (you wouldn’t know by looking at me, would you?). She took risks. Then she turned 30ish and lived a little and lost a lot and got scared.

Walking down that aisle was the point of no return for me (I came with a no-guarantees, no refunds, no exchanges policy–and my husband knew it. πŸ˜‰ ).

We knew when we met that we would marry. I was a love-at-first-sight nonbeliever before that moment.

Twenty-one years later, I’ve also gone past the point of no return in regards to writing. Wherever it leads me, I’ll keep writing. My 40ish-year-old self has kicked that scared 30ish-year-old self out. She’s been banished for not writing for so many years because that twisted dark side was too scary to go along with the sadness she felt at the time (I might share that someday, or not). She didn’t understand then how that darkness could lead to light and healing–and more freaking scarediness that leads to more even light.

I understand it now. And I used it in one of my novels. (That’s probably the extent of the sharing.)

So enjoy your points of no return and don’t let the potential road blocks derail your journey getting there. And if you do, embrace the kick in the gut and become a better person because of it.

I’m grateful for my honey–my partner–for all these years. We’ve been through some hard times together and are stronger for it.

22 comments on… “Halfway Point aka the Point of No Return”

  1. I knew there was something I liked about you! I too, knew I would marry my guy when I met him. He knew it too! I was also *ahem* 12 when I got married.
    Congrats and here’s to 21+ more years!

    • Diana Beebe

      Thanks so much, Joy! Here’s to love at first sight! πŸ™‚

    • Diana Beebe

      Thank you, Melinda!

      I’m glad I got my act together, too.

  2. Wow, I vividly remember being at your wedding when you were *ahem* age 12! I was only *ahem* 19 myself, how the years have flown. I read your every post, and on this particular day, pay you my ultimate compliment (believe it) – a comment! Congrats on your blog that is such great fun to read, and congrats to you both on your anniversary celebration…may BOTH be followed by so very many more!

    • Diana Beebe

      Dave, you are so sweet! I was just looking at our wedding pictures. You looked too young to be, eh, 19!

      We were always so grateful to have such loving family and friends there to support us…and to continue supporting us! It means a lot to me. {{{HUGS}}}

  3. Rachel

    I love how you put the “I’ve spent more of my life as Beebe than not.” It’s an interesting perspective. You are a beautiful person full of vibrance and grace to bring to your family and our friendship.
    I also how you brought the light into your description of the writing journey.

    In dark and hidden places, there shines the blessed light;
    The beam of Truth displaces the darkness of the night. (H2)


    • Diana Beebe

      There is always hope, Sydney! πŸ™‚ I’m so glad you stopped by today.

  4. Diana, this was such a wonderful post. And what a gorgeous pic of you! Loved the dress. Wishing you many, many more happy anniversaries! Hugs πŸ™‚

  5. Wow, you were a gorgeous bride, and still are. πŸ™‚ Happy Anniversary!!

    I’m so glad you rediscovered your writing in your forties. It took me until my late fifties to get serious about it. But I think sometimes we have to live a little before we have the insight to write well.

    • Diana Beebe

      Thanks, Kassandra!

      I think you’re right about needing insight. I know I did. Also, I needed a little distance from my mid-30s. I’m a much happier writer, even when it’s dark. πŸ™‚

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